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...Ever seen that girl in class who always is smiling?
Usually always surrounded by friends?
Usually never is alone?
I know that girl.
And I know that inside, that girl is unhappy, despite her smiles.
Sometimes, she may be happy, yes...
But get her alone.. And then all you see in her eyes is panic; worry.
What if someone leaves her?
What if she's ditched for someone else?
What if she's always paranoid that the one she wants there the most is getting tired of her?
She always holds those she finds the most important the closest to herself.
She doesn't like to let them go.
And when they speak about other friends, and see them getting really close to them..
She gets jealous.
She feels as if she's getting replaced.
She doesn't mean to feel like that.
She just does.
She wants them to be happy.
But she wants to be in the picture.
And yet she doesn't want to be in their way.
It's a lose-lose situation either way.
So she sits in her room, thinking of how she can change herself.
But she comes up wi
Is such a bothersome void to fill by yourself.
The fact that you have no one there, who knows exactly what you're going through;
to help you through your pain and struggles.
You may thing that as you get older, and the more friends that you gain;
that this disease gets better...
This is not the case.
It gets consistently worse.
This gap in your chest simply grows and grows until it's the only thing there...
This black abyss...
of simply nothing.
And it slowly eats you from the inside out until you can no longer take it...
And your heart and mind end up eventually growing as black as the hole you're trapped in.
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